Result's CT and others.

Yesterday I was almost beside myself with worry over my mental state. A visit to my GP (Sharon is damned good) took a hell of a load off my mind when she went over the results of my CT Brain Scan and conducted a barrage of anxiety and memory tests. The scans showed that everything was normal, CT showed no sign of stroke and Doppler scan showed minor plaque build-up in the carotid artery, a good result.

The memory test result was 100% "an over achiever", Sharon called me, that was a heck of a relief I can tell you but it sure doesn't feel right since I am still having huge difficulty with focus and concentration, I seem to be really absent-minded and dithery for want of a better term. 

A number of years ago I suffered a three day episode of Transient Amnesia brought about by stress which was the result of a massive workload and no sleep for an extended period.

The anxiety test showed significant levels of stress and whilst I am a long way from suicidal my self confidence and self esteem is very low thereby creating a catch 22 situation. Sharon has recommended that I see a psychologist and has given me a referral. I will set up an appointment but in the meantime, now that I have a handle on what is wrong with me I can begin to do something positive about it.

I will knuckle down, carry my load and get caught up on work. I will be more determined (I have a stubborn streak a mile wide and I'm not afraid to use it) to complete tasks in a timely fashion. Do the job once - do it right! no second guessing! Bring back that old arrogance, toughen up... pull up my socks, get my act together and be a man!! Absolutely CRUSH all negativity beyond recognition and build self confidence and self esteem with positive affirmative thoughts, speech and action!!